You are tired... You made me feel this way... I tried so hard, yet you disappoint me again and again... You made me promise not to cry in public and you ask me to cry in the toilet, you felt disgraced... You hurt me... you never knew... you are tired of me... you need a break... maybe a short one, long one... or...

aint hotter than this!, 8/31/2008 02:47:00 am

RRRRRRRRRRR! I hate conb. I lost 16marks! Man! I know it I really do... Haiz... So disappointed with myself. Why can some ppl be happy just by passing? Why are some never contented... higher order needs... When can I reach the self-actualization stage? Never? Not too near? Not even within my range of sight... Strive for MMR! One last ppr... I hope its a great one...

aint hotter than this!, 8/26/2008 05:48:00 pm

Silly... Sorry to spoil your surprise... But a surprise is no longer a surprise when its known. What I don't expect anything splendid or exaggerating. Something as simple as my favourite Twix suddenly, unexpectedly delivered to my doorstep to motivate me or to be with me when I am down. And its not that I take every mth so hard or I want you to do smth every mth, its just that... the least I expect from you is a few words... even though its belated... I need to slp! Nite=)

aint hotter than this!, 8/25/2008 12:37:00 am

Nope he hasn't asked for it. I think he has forgotten about it.
Every time you look at someone else's r/s you always think how sweet are others and think why can't yours be like that. Others always seem happier than you are. Why? Why are does it seem that others are always better. Everyone thinks that way?
I do.

aint hotter than this!, 8/24/2008 12:43:00 am

Woo hoo! Stayed up so late to study! haha! Actually studied for 2 hrs only... Zhen is staying over at my place tdy! YAY! AHh! I have harvested more fats at my tummy, pimples on my face, dark circles, eye bag, nth good... HAHA! I'm like ugly and hideous now! And exhausted... Gotta slpppp! Nite...

aint hotter than this!, 8/21/2008 02:37:00 am

AHH! Headache! Wth is consideration?! My god! definition - price made by the promisee in exchange for a promisor's promise.

RuleS relating to consideration.
RULE #1 - Must be of value but not necessarily adequate value. - Someone please sell me your house for $1 !

RULE#2 - Must be of monetary value - Same as my principle: Talk is cheap! Show me the MONEY! - Just kidding

Rule#3- I curse this rule! so LONG! - must be fresh in the sense that it cannot be something that a promisee is already obligated to do / promisor is entitled to receive. - I cant give you money to treat me nicely because it is your duty to treat me nicely. HAHA! - whoever you are. Haha.

Rule#4 - I don't understand too... Must be made by promisee
Rule#5 - EVEN WORSE... Must be in exchange for promisor's promise.

I'm having a headache man! Twix Twix Twix!

aint hotter than this!, 8/19/2008 05:54:00 pm

I feel like hugging you on this chilly and cold night... Its a damn cold night, but I'm, I'm with you...

aint hotter than this!, 8/19/2008 12:16:00 am

Baby,

"I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything"

aint hotter than this!, 8/17/2008 06:19:00 pm

HAPPY 6th month ANNIVERSARY to me!
No one to celebrate with
Nothing is happy about today.
Because there is a DISCHARGE BY FRUSTRATION: when through no fault of the parties becomes (in this case) impossible to perform.

- In contracts of personal service the service provider becomes incapacitated hence contract is frustrated.

In this case INCAPACITATED means : my boyfriend is lent to the nation, training to protect his country out in the jungle for like 6 days, thus, unable to contact me today.

How sad! I am mad! LAwing... I feel like eating seafooood! I kinda envious of Yurica. She seems to have so much good food and fun! Awwww... After friday, I can foresee 6 of us having so much more fun next year when we are legal. Whereby contracts won't be forbidden by statue.
Friday is so fun! So relaxed, no stress, no considerations. Its so different when we are having fun with friends! Woo Hooo. Anticipate more to come.
However when it comes to drinking I'm under economic duress* HAHA!

Ciaoz.Back to LSC!

aint hotter than this!, 8/17/2008 05:04:00 pm

So unproductive today. I am tired again! Zzz! SLEEP lar! HAHA! I think I'm missing Chris too much. Though I am not in a bad mood but I feel quite sad too. No one to crap with... AHHH! tired...

aint hotter than this!, 8/16/2008 11:42:00 pm

Yes we are finally done with our projs! Over and done with Yr2 Sem1! Woo Hooo! We went to boat quay to drink yesterday. To chill and relax... This time everyone is ON! All six of us. HEHE. I've been quite down since last Sunday. Till ytd! When you take some time off and just relax, it feels so good. We open bottle( Martell) drink, sing! We went to acoustic. Woo Hoo. So fun. Chill till about 2 plus then we scooot home! Going back there after exams to bottoms UP! Heh!
Had mentoring today my 'friend' went along. It was good. Ai peng is super obedient, did her revision. Hope that she can do well for her PSLE. I better rmb to buy sweets for her next week!!!

After so many gloomy days, finally i'm feeling better today. Unfortunately, Chris won't be ard to share with me... I've been 'ignoring' him for a week as I'm feeling really frustrated. Now that I am better he has gone for his 6 days outfield. Hope he is alright. Soon asked abt Chris tdy. Ask if he is alright, if he is going to OCS, if his tummy still there, etc... Haha...

Talking about OCS, hmm... no longer aiming for it, no longer wants to take up the challenge which is so different from what was told to me previously. In my heart already an officer but now giving up... But whatever, as long as he is happy... Don't want to talk about that anymore.

STUDY! Way to go~

Disappointed ? Yes. I'll have to learn to accept it.

aint hotter than this!, 8/16/2008 07:07:00 pm

Tmr's is Dan's 18th birthday yo! But I can't go=( got proj... I need to focus and start studying! I really lost focus in life... direction... Who can help me? Everything will change and is going to change...

aint hotter than this!, 8/13/2008 06:12:00 pm

Cause I'm burning up!

Darren did the CUBE test on me. I'm quite amazed by it

CUBE test :
Imagine yourself being in a sunny beach in sentosa suddenly a CUBE pop out of no where, what does the cube looks like? How big is it? What colour is it?

My answer: Enormous, Translucent.

Then you enter the cube and you look around it, you see a ladder, describe the ladder.

My answer: Curve at the side of wall, made of glass.

Alright now, you look around you and you see a bunch of flowers. Describe them.

My answer: Different flowers made up of blue, red, yellow and orange flowers.

Coool.. Alright. After admiring the flowers, you see a horse. Describe the horse.

My answer: White unicorn.

What is the unicorn doing?

My answer: Waiting for me to hop on. Running towards me.

Ok. Last question. From the enormous and translucent cube, you see storm clouds gathering in a distance. Describe them.

Answer: Grey and forbidding

Isn't is a beautiful picture? With colourful flowers and unicorn and a stairs leading you to your bedroom till the storm clouds gathered!

Evaluation!
- I have an enormous EGO! Thats true...

- I'm like an open book. Anyone can see through me. When I am angry people can sense it no matter how hard I try to hide. Zzz. Thats very true..

- Flowers represent my frens. I have quite a variety and quality friends around you that bring colours into my life and I appreciate them! YES I DO! I love my friends!

- The unicorn represents my ideal lover!

"Your ideal love can be fierce yet good, selfless yet solitary but always mysteriously beautiful. Most importantly, he must be dependable and be around you when you need him so that you can 'hop on his back' in times of need. Sometimes run towards you when he has problems of his own.. so cannot be too stronggg!"

Hmm... true? I don't know! Hehe!

- The storm represents your problems. You always tend to see the negative aspect of your problems, so much so sometimes you wish you can avoid all of them and just lead a happy problem free life with your loved ones beside you.

Yes I do but who doesn't? Haha!

But I really love unicorns. Strong yet gentle...

aint hotter than this!, 8/12/2008 12:44:00 pm

Drink to all the marks I have lost! I cant believe it! Haiz... I'm in a terrible mood.
Way to go FW!

I hate it when you defend her I hate it when you say "You're so petty, she also never offend you."
I hate both of you. You and her.
These words kept repeating in my head, " I don't want to know because I know her better than you do." Listening to your voice just makes me think of it more. Leave me alone. You're just making me feel more miserable...

aint hotter than this!, 8/11/2008 04:41:00 pm

Cute right. HAIZ! FW OM! After these two I'll feel better. I have lots troubles but I just choose to keep it to myself. My ego... haha. I don't want to meet you because its only for awhile. So I don't see the point. But. Haiz. I hate this really. I seriously cannot take it.
I'm always the one talking.. you dont talk about you to me at all...

aint hotter than this!, 8/09/2008 02:41:00 pm

Chris called. He sounded super grumpy and I didn't sound that great too. Weighed down by the weight of MMR!!!
My Great discovery! I FOUND YOU! Just got a bad impression of you from the start, and it just pisses me off whenever my bf "seek redress" for you. Whatever. I got the rest of my friends to "seek redress" with me! Chey nth special.. CHUI! wahahha!
I am going crazy! CONB CONB, MMR MMR, OM OM, FW FW, DMA, DMA!!! Woo hOo! Shiok!
Tsk*Tsk* Alec! I want to go hall 2 also! wahaha!

I'm so depressed. I feel like I'm totally empty. Life's difficult...
Seriously I do not what else can I do other than missing you. You can't even be here for me when I need you...

aint hotter than this!, 8/06/2008 10:44:00 pm

UP!

Oh my god! I really hate this phase of poly! It sucks! I really want to do well in poly, get out and go to uni ASAP! So I can join my bro and chris and be in the same phase. I'm like... restless and boo!

ANws! I'm aching from head to toe! Head-ache, back- ache, waist- ache, stomach- ache... Blah blah! I miss Chris so much... This is probably the hardest part. He is not coming back for our 6th mth anniversary which is next week but I can't accompany him this week! I have tests and assignments and projs to be completed. I think I have to ignore him for a mth, I think I shan't be selfish and let him look for another girl. HAHA! That's not what I really think though. He will probably rush to play his soccer - bet he will be happier than anything... Zzz...
Anws, these things aside, sacrifices have to be made, so many things in my mind, so many things I want to do. I do not want to grow up but I want to move on with life! How contradicting! Zzz!
Alright!
CIAOZ...

Missing you so much, having nightmares of you leaving me... You are going to NUS, what if I go to NTU, worst, work... thats the end isn't it?

aint hotter than this!, 8/05/2008 11:50:00 pm

... that you will be mine again.
Chris is back and gone again. This weekend is a sweet dream but "SMACK!" its back to reality again... A dreadful week. Very very busy. I haven't started on my FW, OM at all. MMR is going to due soon. This week is really crazy. I hope it will be over soon! But I can't spend the weekend with Chris this week. HAIZ. I got like tests and assignments to finish. Madnesssssssss. I'm exhausted. Take a nap...

Took a nap...
Wake up. Hope to see Chris beside me. It hurts when I realise that he has gone back. Was watching incredible tales. Supposed to be spooky however it turned out to be a romantic love story. Psychiatrist said that our mind is so powerful that when u are in a coma for even a few hours you can travel back to the past and see the person or date the person that they will eventually marry. In the 'dream' it could be happening for hrs,days,months or even years even though that you are only in a coma for a few hrs. How sweet. Which means that are really relationships that could last throughout centuries, so called eternity...

aint hotter than this!, 8/03/2008 07:57:00 pm

I just ache from my shoulders all the way down. Man. Just tiring. We did filming today. Yea. Useless. I practically did nth. Not as if I wanted. Nevermind. I just hope tmr will be better! There's mentoring tmr! Chris is coming back too =)

aint hotter than this!, 8/01/2008 09:20:00 pm