Pink.Chocolate.Famous Amos.
Chris.
ZHEN.
CBDs.
ABUBAS.
Beckam.MAN UTD.
Wonderful.Dramatic.Crazy.
DANce.DAnce.Dance.
Monday 28 July 2008
Its all over again. Rehabilitation Day 2.
Chris came back on Friday! These two days are practically too short. I barely feel him for 2 hours!!! It felt like a dream... I was smack right back to reality only when he is about to go back again... This week will be worse... I want to go back to the past. When I can see him whenever I want to, pour my sorrows to him and tell him all the happenings whenever I want to... I miss the past... I miss his hair, the past Christopher, the things that we used to do and the things we can do... He don't belong to me anymore. He belongs to the country now.But we can only look forward! Other than missing him is missing him more. Its so hard but I will try to keep it going. I will "borrow" him to the country for 2 years. Hopefully the interest and "returns" will be good...
Chris came back on Friday! These two days are practically too short. I barely feel him for 2 hours!!! It felt like a dream... I was smack right back to reality only when he is about to go back again... This week will be worse... I want to go back to the past. When I can see him whenever I want to, pour my sorrows to him and tell him all the happenings whenever I want to... I miss the past... I miss his hair, the past Christopher, the things that we used to do and the things we can do... He don't belong to me anymore. He belongs to the country now.But we can only look forward! Other than missing him is missing him more. Its so hard but I will try to keep it going. I will "borrow" him to the country for 2 years. Hopefully the interest and "returns" will be good...
aint hotter than this!, 7/28/2008 10:46:00 pm
Friday 18 July 2008
Rehabilitation Day 10. Great weather, sucky day.
I'm just not in the right mood. So many unnecessary things to be done. Duties and shit. Was supposed to meet Zhen to do my LSC but the poor girl is sick=( Get Well soon dear! Looks like I have to stay alone at home to do tonight. I really want to join ruby they all, but
1. I'm short of cash
2. I need to do LSC by today.
-Have mentoring and cycling tmr, most probably going sentosa on sunday and meeting up the rest of my PUB members for the first time.
-There are still 7 days to go before I can see Chris.
-And I've filming on that day.
-Plus we have project meetin the whole next week. Zzz
-I'm really turn off by the guys man. Will they stop looking at us sexually. I really can't stand it. Zzz!
Slept for 2 and a half hrs! wahahaha! Feeeels good!
I'm just not in the right mood. So many unnecessary things to be done. Duties and shit. Was supposed to meet Zhen to do my LSC but the poor girl is sick=( Get Well soon dear! Looks like I have to stay alone at home to do tonight. I really want to join ruby they all, but
1. I'm short of cash
2. I need to do LSC by today.
-Have mentoring and cycling tmr, most probably going sentosa on sunday and meeting up the rest of my PUB members for the first time.
-There are still 7 days to go before I can see Chris.
-And I've filming on that day.
-Plus we have project meetin the whole next week. Zzz
-I'm really turn off by the guys man. Will they stop looking at us sexually. I really can't stand it. Zzz!
Slept for 2 and a half hrs! wahahaha! Feeeels good!
aint hotter than this!, 7/18/2008 03:24:00 pm
Monday 14 July 2008
Rehabilitation Day 6. Restless day.
I feel really restless today and haven't done anything meaningful but at least I have school today so time passes faster so I won't think of Chris that much.
- Aww! I didn't didn't bring my file! Whats the pt of going to sch? Is it because of the effect of the drug again?
- Rehabilitation seems to make me more addicted than ever.
- Chris haven't called, I doubt he will... Its late. Haven't received any of his sms... Hope he is fine=)
- He sent me a Good morning msg today! I'm exhilarated!
- I got a burning question to ask him. "Is the photoshoot you took that day for glen?"
- Zzz... I have a thousand words in mind to curse.
- LSC! CONTRACT HOW?!
- What abt OM?
- Something interesting... Our dear classmate is featured in Cleo's magazine! tsk tsk*
Baby I miss you...
I feel really restless today and haven't done anything meaningful but at least I have school today so time passes faster so I won't think of Chris that much.
- Aww! I didn't didn't bring my file! Whats the pt of going to sch? Is it because of the effect of the drug again?
- Rehabilitation seems to make me more addicted than ever.
- Chris haven't called, I doubt he will... Its late. Haven't received any of his sms... Hope he is fine=)
- He sent me a Good morning msg today! I'm exhilarated!
- I got a burning question to ask him. "Is the photoshoot you took that day for glen?"
- Zzz... I have a thousand words in mind to curse.
- LSC! CONTRACT HOW?!
- What abt OM?
- Something interesting... Our dear classmate is featured in Cleo's magazine! tsk tsk*
Baby I miss you...
aint hotter than this!, 7/14/2008 10:33:00 pm
Sunday 13 July 2008
Rehabilitation Day 5. It is pouring now. And whenever its at night and its raining I miss you more...
Darling hang in there! You can do it! You're going to make it! I miss you a little more everyday.
Rehabilitation seems to be uselesssss.
- Went out with your fren tdy! Watched HANCOCK.
- Went Cathay , think of you again...
- Hancock was... not as well done as expected. But still not tooo bad!
- I'm waiting for you to watch red cliff and dark knight with me!
- Please take care alright! You'll do just fine=)
~Loves~
Darling hang in there! You can do it! You're going to make it! I miss you a little more everyday.
Rehabilitation seems to be uselesssss.
- Went out with your fren tdy! Watched HANCOCK.
- Went Cathay , think of you again...
- Hancock was... not as well done as expected. But still not tooo bad!
- I'm waiting for you to watch red cliff and dark knight with me!
- Please take care alright! You'll do just fine=)
~Loves~
aint hotter than this!, 7/13/2008 10:34:00 pm
Rehabilitation Day4. Saturday, technically Sunday. 1.37am. Weather - no idea.
-I practically slept the whole day and work the whole evening.
-There's nth good about today, its awful, long and terrible.
-The best part is I get to hear Chris voice to near till 20 mins!
-He sounded different, voice hoarse but he still sound cheerful. I know its tough for him! I'm not going to make it tougher. I really miss him like crazy! Like crazy!
-Addiction's bad today. Very.
-14 more days to go!
-5 more days to our 5th mth!
Am so frustrated after doing the namecards.
I miss you so much I want to breakdown and cry...
-I practically slept the whole day and work the whole evening.
-There's nth good about today, its awful, long and terrible.
-The best part is I get to hear Chris voice to near till 20 mins!
-He sounded different, voice hoarse but he still sound cheerful. I know its tough for him! I'm not going to make it tougher. I really miss him like crazy! Like crazy!
-Addiction's bad today. Very.
-14 more days to go!
-5 more days to our 5th mth!
Am so frustrated after doing the namecards.
I miss you so much I want to breakdown and cry...
aint hotter than this!, 7/13/2008 01:36:00 am
Friday 11 July 2008
Rehabilitation Day 3. Fine. Very Humid!
Had a short day in school.
-We had our presentation and handed in our MMR proj.
-Two heavy loads are finally unloaded.
-Went to feast with ZHEN ZHEN (JOANNA) AGAIn!
- I am staying over at her hse! Its going to fun!
- I miss chris badly! 2 weeks is far away!
- HE CALLED! He said its kinda tough and its going to be tougher! I guess thats what it takes to be in the enhancement batch.
- I really hope he is fine!
I need the drug! I cant take it no more!
HAHA! And I am drowning myself with work...
Cheers! 14days to see CHRIS 6 days to our 'monthly -versary'
Had a short day in school.
-We had our presentation and handed in our MMR proj.
-Two heavy loads are finally unloaded.
-Went to feast with ZHEN ZHEN (JOANNA) AGAIn!
- I am staying over at her hse! Its going to fun!
- I miss chris badly! 2 weeks is far away!
- HE CALLED! He said its kinda tough and its going to be tougher! I guess thats what it takes to be in the enhancement batch.
- I really hope he is fine!
I need the drug! I cant take it no more!
HAHA! And I am drowning myself with work...
Cheers! 14days to see CHRIS 6 days to our 'monthly -versary'
aint hotter than this!, 7/11/2008 11:34:00 pm
Thursday 10 July 2008
Rehabilitation Day 2. Rainy yet sunny day. Humid.
- It is not a fine day. I started my day really badly.
- Lesson starts at 9am I reach at 8am! Argh!
- Its either I want to get out of my hse so eagerly or I was out of mind due to the absence of the drug.
- I have the urge to go back home I stayed with the only motivation: Get back my test papers
Yet, didnt! But we gotten back LSC, Haiz... Disappointing... Because I know I have screwed ConB so I expect LSC to be better but...
- I miss CHRISTOPHER NG WEI LONG.
- I took a nap when I came back home, I dreamt of me hugging Chris. I didnt want to wake up.
Getting delusional...
Excited! I am going to stay over at Joanna's hse tmr. I have loads of stuff to do. At least I have company when my addiction kicks off*
Gotta do work! Two CAs deadline tmr!
Waiting for my "sentence" to be over! Hope you are safe and sound! God bless~
- It is not a fine day. I started my day really badly.
- Lesson starts at 9am I reach at 8am! Argh!
- Its either I want to get out of my hse so eagerly or I was out of mind due to the absence of the drug.
- I have the urge to go back home I stayed with the only motivation: Get back my test papers
Yet, didnt! But we gotten back LSC, Haiz... Disappointing... Because I know I have screwed ConB so I expect LSC to be better but...
- I miss CHRISTOPHER NG WEI LONG.
- I took a nap when I came back home, I dreamt of me hugging Chris. I didnt want to wake up.
Getting delusional...
Excited! I am going to stay over at Joanna's hse tmr. I have loads of stuff to do. At least I have company when my addiction kicks off*
Gotta do work! Two CAs deadline tmr!
Waiting for my "sentence" to be over! Hope you are safe and sound! God bless~
aint hotter than this!, 7/10/2008 08:12:00 pm
Wednesday 9 July 2008
Rehabilitation Day 1. Rainy and chilly day.
My baby boy has enlisted into NS!
I am so proud of him but I miss him so much... After so much pampering and reliance, it is so diffcult to not have him around. I am trying very hard to get used to it. When he get into UNI I bet its going to be the same. I dont mind accompanying him to study, I just hope his heart will stay the same... Cause my love for you will never change... What he told me scares me. So each time I get to hug him I gotta hug him tight because I dont know when he is going to leave me. For now I just hope that he is doing well inside and pray that he will be safe and sound!
This drug is hard to kick ofF!
Peace ~ Loves~
My baby boy has enlisted into NS!
I am so proud of him but I miss him so much... After so much pampering and reliance, it is so diffcult to not have him around. I am trying very hard to get used to it. When he get into UNI I bet its going to be the same. I dont mind accompanying him to study, I just hope his heart will stay the same... Cause my love for you will never change... What he told me scares me. So each time I get to hug him I gotta hug him tight because I dont know when he is going to leave me. For now I just hope that he is doing well inside and pray that he will be safe and sound!
This drug is hard to kick ofF!
Peace ~ Loves~aint hotter than this!, 7/09/2008 06:29:00 pm
Tuesday 1 July 2008
My goodness waited for sOooo long to arrange a time to go sentosa! Actually planned to go sentosa next saturday 12 Jul 08 with Zhen but I realised that there's a Cafe del Mar party @ sentosa! goodnesss sponsered by NUM. Should I say sponsered by Coke zero and supported by NUM and siloso beach? ahha! Guess alot of ppl is going!
Should I go Cafe Del Mar?
In any case have to change the date with Zhen !
Should I go Cafe Del Mar?
In any case have to change the date with Zhen !
aint hotter than this!, 7/01/2008 06:44:00 pm