Words aint enough to express my thoughts...

2010-03-11T14:30:00.001+08:00

2010-03-10T11:32:00.003+08:00

Frantically looking for a job with good PAY! Haha! I don't feel like working,

Kinda afraid to work..

Just booked my test, Man, I'm so scared. I think I will fail=/

I'm so stressed up! I can't breathe!

I want to buy clothes I need more money!! I want my BB! AHHHH!

Blogging while waiting for my phone interview, a little nervousss!

Loves* today's weather! Going to play squash later with Shirley!

2010-03-08T13:50:00.002+08:00

I don't understand, why do anyone wants to weigh themselves with more burden when they are less than capable. I don't understand why you are doing it.

Though I do understand you want to have more responsibilities. But you are not capable, you are weighing down on me, on us.

I'm pissed.

2010-03-04T11:28:00.004+08:00

Am reading a book, " Whatever she wants " - Confessions of a male escort. It is amazing how open minded and how much one can accept him as an escort. Would you?

There's this line, " I'm glad how my gf can separate sex from love. " As an escort, basically you sell sex, and the gf accepts that. Emotional Attachment Vs Physically Attachment. Right. Understood. Love is indeed more profound than anyone of us can decode.

Yes, acceptance, generiousity is what you need to let someone get head over heels over you!

It is really an extraordinary perspective.

- THATS why i say, people you should read books and not be shallow! HAHA!

2010-03-02T15:57:00.006+08:00

I haven't blogged since really looong! CNY has been blast! Many nice treats and goodies!

February has been nice! CNY, V day, 2nd yr Anni and BSB Concert! HEH! Which also means that money has been running like water..

This post I wish to let the photos do the talking instead=D

It was really funny cause I called Chris in the midst of blogging as I couldn't remember a thing about what we did for our 2nd year Anniversary. Bad memories, No photos and Normal Place! HAHA! So lesson learnt, Either take photos or Find a unique place!

On 17/02/10 we went to Astons then to Anderson's for Icee cream!

This was on V day!

We had a spread!

This was the BSB Concert! Totally Fab!

Happy 2nd Year Anniversary Baby! I love you!

Great " Finale " Before the crowd started shouting encoree!

February has been reasonably well but not Fabulous, Chris and I have been bickering a lot! We'll have coool down and not get Nick's curse!

2010-01-06T21:59:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year Peeps!

Welcome to 2010!

I reviewed 2009 and had a list of new year resolutions!

Tiger year is going to ROAR!

Many good things ahead! First up!

Zk's 21st, Joel 31st, Audre 21st, CNY! OMG! I am so looking forward to Chinese New Year! HEHE!
Wear nice nice clothes and collect ang bao!

Many tripsss! Japan Thailand, Hong Kong! Though its not really confirmed, I am happily anticipating it!

Work has been tiring after the long long nice break! SO! Ciao!

2009-12-29T15:37:00.000+08:00

It has been three months since I’ve neglected you. I am so sorry... Not that I’ve found my new love but these two months has been a roller coaster ride for me. You’ve met your match. Your rival gave me no choice but to report to him for the 6 weeks. Now that I have come back, I will be able to give ‘face’lift with the html knowledge I’ve learnt.

Greatest love to my lovely personal blog=D

Alright cut the crap. Thank god I am not some famous blogger or sort. I will definitely lose my job.

Roller Coaster Ride

For the past two months I have been on the other blog: gniyil.wordpress.com what I call the ‘commercial’ blog. That represents my grades okay. We are expected to blog in perfect English which is quite tough for me with no ‘haha’s, exclamation-s, all the singlish and short forms. Sounds dull uh.

Ironically, school was really good for the 6 weeks with lots of breaks and interesting lessons. I won’t complain about being exhausted or whatever. We thought (we here is my poly frens) we could spend some quality time together at last before we part. Well many skipped school and others had plans.
Me? Hospital excursion everyday.

Not me, I am fine and well but one of my beloved is hospitalised. The ordeal lasted for around 2 weeks? Or more. I will not rant about the distance, time and being exhausted. It’s the mental stress and disruption to our lives. It was the dullest and darkest point of my life. Feeling so stressed, so helpless and so distracted. I even prayed even though I am not superstitious. I promised not to eat beef till next year for him to get well. I cried every night. It was torturous.

Thank god all is over and now I am already one month into internship. Internship is really tiring but its really rewarding! I miss SCHOOL!
The last post I was talking about looking forward to many 21st birthday parties, Halloween and Christmas. Now

Christmas is only one day away!

I want to thank my parents, my CBDs for being understanding and showering me with love to pull me through the darkest part of my life. I’m in paradise now! Even though I am very very very very broke now=// I'm happy=D

There’s no Halloween. But I attended awesome 21st parties and birthday parties! Many Christmas parties ahead!

Dated on: 22nd Dec 2009

2009-09-29T15:34:00.002+08:00

It has been more than a month into the looong holidaysss! Great rest and plenty of fun I will say! Can't wait for internship and can't wait to graduate! Chris's 21st party has been greatt! We all had fun though its difficult to describe the feelings crossed between being lethargic and happiness. Just like I cant decide if the chalet is boring or relaxing. Its a fine line uh.

This holidays mainly is rather relaxing, other than the once in a lifetime 21st birthday for my love, I picked up squash, had a chance to visit my grandma, stayed at home and sleep, meet up my frens and try to keep my mind as calm as possible.

Many thingss ahead of me, plenty of 21st birthday celebrations, Mid-autumm, Halloween, My fren's wedding, My KL trip=), My birthday, CHRISTMAS!

I love the mood of Christmas and the thought of that perks me up! Its such a sweet and happy occassion! MAN! Love it!

Line-ups! K-box and WWW with love this week!

Oh ya, I'm learning driving soon! How exciting, plus a little nervoussss!

Great day=)

2009-09-04T14:57:00.000+08:00

Today is 4th Sept... Approx 10 more days to baby's 21st! That reminds me, havent gotten him gifts and balloons! Gosh! Working on Project D, tuition, chris's bdae has worn me out! Life's good! But financially a little down=X

Oh yes! Photos! Will upload soon OKAY!

2009-08-21T01:11:00.002+08:00

Today, 21st August 2009 will officially be the start of our school holidays!

I somehow bickered with him today. Over the phone. I don't understand. Irritated then just say, isit that difficult? Am I that stupid, your tone says it all and that all it takes for you to hurt me. Not even words you need.

Although its a small matter I feel that things have changed, I dont know what changed but I think things changed.

I overestimated myself, I am just a normal girl right?

I want to know what should I do.

Tennis and Swimming was great, leave me aching... yet it feels really great.

I dont think I can do without you...

2009-07-13T19:54:00.003+08:00

"Tell me what don't you understand ?"

Mentally and physically drained...

Like The Loss Of Sunlight
On A Cloudy Afternoon
Gone Too Soon

Spirit gone too soon, focus loss in the direction, you allow yourself to be led astray

And I don't really know what the hell I'm doing, I could be on my bed sleeping, slacking around, do my own things

And it's getting annoying
Cos' I could don't give a damn about nobody but you

And I'm at my wits end
Cause there's nothing else that I can do
If you just dont care,
Maybe I should just be done with you

So let me ask you a question,

2009-07-01T21:51:00.002+08:00

Empty classrooms, empty canteens, empty minds, empty hearts... That's what school means to me now... Ahhh what a long, draggy and empty school day...

Luckily I get to meet Bee today! He really brightens up my day.. Forgot about the emptiness, tiredness and sianz--nesss! Its all about Happinesss=)

Fel Fel and May May is drowned with their LOVE too! I really cannot wait to get out of school, no more learning, motivation and spirits* Zzz!

Should I go clubbing this Sat? Hmmm... What about projects? sleep? pimples? Most importantly, Bee? HAHA!

2009-06-28T21:02:00.003+08:00

OMG. The last post was 3rd May. Year three is indeed hectic. Well Well.. Its going to end soon... Poly school life's ending like in less than 2 mths time?! Goodness! I think I'm going to miss the crazy bunch nevertheless... HAHA! Though I'm nt involved in their mahjong, drinking, clubbing sessions... HAhA... I can't deny they are really a fun bunch.

H1N1 has gotten everyone on their toess! I was sick for 2 out of 3 weeks of holidays too... Zzz! Dint meet up with the Gals and only met up with BP once! However I had awesome weekends with Chris=) This weekend is special too. Though we spent very little time by our own.

Yesterday had a fantastic time with Chris and family. It was his dad birthday, we had a sumptuous dinner at a jap restaurant at esplanade. Yummy! Then we went to Mt Faber, Jewel box and I had baileys! - SHit man, haven't drink in awhile... felt a little tired after drinking... Zzz.. (don't laugh)

Today Chris had a tournament! I carried my support ( 2 bottles of H2o) and I think I walked 2km! HAHA! I had Anderson Ice-cream! Like like finally!

WHO's up for Ice- cream with meee? - I've got Taka voucher!

Tml school's reopening... Zzz=(

Just some picss...

2009-05-03T15:00:00.002+08:00

Sorry haven't had time to finish up my Korea trip.. Put on hold first okay... This weekend sucks! Hate it.... But life's like that... Ups and downs... This is probably my down... Hopefully this upcoming week will be good... but I doubt so... So not looking forward to this weekend... BECAUSE I HAVE TO GO BACK TO SCH! Then having mothers' day celebration... Hmm... Commitments? Lots... So unfulfilled.. Not something that I like..SCH, CCA, TUITION, DAD's work,MENTORING and the list goes on...

Please Please... I hope this will be over like soon...

2009-04-16T10:58:00.007+08:00

I'M BACK FROM KOREA!

YAY! So glad I am back! Though I am down with flu, fever, virus attack in some part of my stomach or all... Zzz...

Last two days of my trip was bad I vomited and had fever... Zzz!

Alright! Let the photos do the talking!

Day 1

- Singapore to Incheon!

Day 2

- Didnt sleep at all during the 6 hours flight! Terribly tired yet excited!
- We hit Seoul with a chilling temperature of 7 degrees!
- Head on to visit some ancient structure.

So cool right, that's where Koreans used to cook.

and some very tough olden days games

Gorgeous Cherry blossoms

accompanied by lovely ladies=)

Hierarchy of maturity!

TO the SUBWAY! - Bullet train! (As fast as the plane)

Very cute right! My aunt and mum! HAHA!

Inside... You can't feel the speed inside, but you can see it!

Food food food! That's dinner! Lunch... Upload nxt time!

- 1st day was really tiring, short naps on the bus, long bus trips.
- Driver got lost while driving us to the hotel which was somewhere in the mountains.
- Reached 3hrs ltr!
- Dead beat!

Day 2

Left the first resort/hotel which is castle for us - princesses=)

Went somewhere nearby to climb this slope to take photos... COld!

Granny, mummy and me!

Then we proceeded to this Mount Daedun with Cable car!

I was freaking afraid! So I took a photo for my mum and dare not look down, its freaking high!

Dinner- Seafood noodles, looks nice but its too bland!

Our resort/hotel was upgraded from castle to palace!

- Went for hot spring that night, it was really cool and fun!
- It was Good Friday then.
- Phoned daddy and honey-)
- Ate Ice- cream! Nice and cheap!

To be continued...

2009-04-03T14:42:00.003+08:00

Okay guys I'm sending my lappy for some medical checkup as it has been sick since I don't know when... SO! I will not be blogging! Leave a msg! ANDDD I'm leaving to KOREA! So won't be hearing for me for almost 1 and a half wks, so take care everyone! Hopefully great photos when I come back!

Misses for CBDs!
Misses for Abubas!
Misses for Bestie
and
Many misses for my dearest lover! CHRISTOPIG=)

2009-04-01T14:32:00.002+08:00

I forgot! HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S DAY!

I fooled my bf and my bp today! HAHAHA! They love me so they are worried for me,thus, I fooled them today! Its also the engagement day of my parents! LoveS~

2009-04-01T13:34:00.003+08:00

SHOPHOLICS IS SUPER AWESOME! - It is super hilarious and interesting! I watched that on Friday, had Waraku again! The service is super duper AWESOME! They really deserve the service star!

Saturday was a long long long day in SCHOOL! Grrrrr! Had lessons from 845am to 5pm. Then had duty from 6pm to 9pm... Only had dinner at 10pm! I was starving!!!
I went to my BESTIE house to give her a surprise on 12 sharp with her favourite strawberry SHORTCAKE from RIVE! But I was too blur, even though I've been there a milllion times, I've forgotten her unit number and floor! STUPID=( However! SHE was suppppper HAPPY! And TOUCHED, SHOCKED! Hehe=)

Sunday was a beautiful sunny day! It is BESTIE's birthday!
She has always been popular so I didnt ask her out on SUN, I've arranged a Sentosa trip with Chris, Mark and Eliza to play volleyball!
WHO KNOWS! BESTIE wanted to celebrate her birthday there too! So we decided to meet each other over there! Its was really fun except the fact that I become real dark!

My Friends

Me and Bestie!

The girls!

2009-03-26T22:30:00.002+08:00

Woo hoo! 1 week plus to KOREA! and of course school reopening... Zzz... Monday went out with poly peeps to Sentosa... Most of them were interested in sun tanning but I ain't interested in the sun at all! But it was fun, playing in the sea... THROWING weeds ard! It was scorching hot! What that means is to really burn your feet! Look at Alec or Fel now... burnt in pain you will know what that means!

Wednesday was lovely with my bestie! We had dinner at Astons, watched 'Coming Soon' and had haagen dazs. The ice cream was okay, not fantastic. I prefer BJ's =) The movie... HAHAHA! With Joanna even horror movie turns into comedy! It was quite smart though...

Friday! I'm looking forward to watch 'Shopaholics!'

2009-03-18T23:13:00.006+08:00

These are like two weeks back in REBEL with my CBDs!
Was sick then=(
Sorry for the very late update!

At Central waiting for some of the girls =)
Psst! I'm wearing shorts!
Ugly facess!
At REBEL
In the 'cage'

Before I leave!

In the toilet! HAHA!

Crowded and warm...

-SIGN OUT-

LOVES

2009-03-18T22:15:00.002+08:00

Went out with my bestie after tuition! Made me feel better=)

Can't see her eyes!

Open your eyes!

Seeeee!

Feeling drowsy! I need to sleep! My friends are clubbing now! 'jump! jump!'

2009-03-17T22:31:00.002+08:00

I had a marvelous dinner at pasta@Waraku@ Novena! Their service crew is wonderful! My clam pasta soup is superb! Clams are super big! The oreo softie is tasty!

It is an awesome day! Happy 1yr1 mth to my beloved Chris once again! Despite a not so fine day and some squabbles with you=)

Aside that I am so pissed with the service Sony Ericsson provides. Way way below expectations. LOUSY! Zzz...

AHHHH! Results coming out soon! I'm super nervous, I should say! I so hope that I can be with my honey! Wants him comfort me, wants to share the joy with him...

God blesss for my results! Please do me a favour! Don't ask about my results!

2009-03-17T01:09:00.001+08:00

I seriously need help! I'm super bad at managing blogss! Attempted to change the skin and I couldn't get it right! So many things missing, and not in order! Grrrr!

Anyway! Happy 1mth! =D

2009-03-06T13:46:00.002+08:00

You have to believe me... I had those feelings before... When you've found the right one, its completely different... Even the Ice berg in ur heart will melt like how global warming is doing... You won't believe it... You change, accommodate just for him/her... That kind of feelings is so dangerous, its a sign, but you are looking for excuses... saying that its a phase... My fren things ain't that simple...

2009-03-03T00:34:00.002+08:00

Its party time!

Busy busy busy ever since exams are over...

Tuesday: LAW PPR, stayover at shumay's place
Wednesday:Clubbing@REBEL
Thursday:Out with bestie
Friday: Anniversary
Saturday: Soccer in the morning, DND at night
Sunday: Shopping!
Monday: Pub outing

AND MORE AND MORE!
The problem is I'm cash strapped! Is not that I do not have things to do. In fact I've tons! However, I'm lacking of resources! Someone please help!

Psst. I'm going to Korea! Hehe=D

2009-03-03T00:06:00.002+08:00

I had an simple yet AWESOME 1 yr anniversary celebration=D

First in the car, with a wonderful bouquet of flowers.

On the way to the yummy dinner!

Laksa STEAMBOAT! You want it, they've got it! Its ala carte! You can order anything u want to eat=D Good quality, affordable, air conditioned, fantastic!

On the way to the keppel , "small island" extend from the harbour..

We had a drink at the tcc there.. that's not the main point.. the place is sooo sweet and romantic and of course EXPENSIVE! But it is really nice=D

Psst. I LOVE YOU HONEY!

2009-03-02T23:56:00.002+08:00

You are out of my league... Don't put you and me together...

P.S. You know its you.

2009-02-23T00:07:00.000+08:00

After today, I'm quite sure I need the three weeks... for both of us...

2009-02-22T13:42:00.003+08:00

Wooo HOO! One more paper!

I was analyzing about my gal frens past r/s... pondering why does it turn out this way?

Fren A cares too much about her bf, bf felt pressured, initiated a break up...
Fren B's bf doesn't care enough about her, not patient enough, not trying hard enough, B can't take those empty talk anymore, initiated a break up,,,

The question here is... care too much? too little? both will not work?

My opinion is that's the difference between Mars and Venus!

Gals would rather be cared for, feel loved, secured and taken care of.

Guys on the other hand, wants to be superior, thinks that no I can't pamper her too much, yes I THINK its okay, nothing's wrong, what's wrong? - answer to those qns are, you know what's wrong... but u want us to spell it out. Thinking, you're unreasonable, why kick out a fuss over such matter? Its just a small issue... to girls: YOU JUST NOT TRYING HARD ENOUGH!
to guys: can't be bothered, i love you, thats all you need to know! ending: GOT DITCHED!

Gals on the other hand, too emotional, not that rational... thinks perhaps I could change him to meet my expectations, love can change him at the start of a HOPEFUL r/s... BUT tooo BAD! It doesn't happen that way... So in the midst of the r/s, he hasn't change, he is such a let-down, he is not meeting your expectations, he's NOT THE ONE! - solution: BREAK UP!

So interesting, so complex.. Shouldn't love be something thats sweet and simple? Hmm.. But this is only one of the cases.. Everyone's different, in some way or another...

Girls who ditched: He's just not that into you!
Guys who got ditched: I'm a little not over you!

2009-02-20T02:11:00.002+08:00

I also want to follow alec's trend...

Please please help me! To do well in my ppr tmr! God bless!

2009-02-12T03:22:00.002+08:00

Yuuu Hoooo!

3.22am... HAHA! Just came back from phuture/Mambo... tired yes... Its firdhaus bdae.. It wasnt that fun actually.. I love the time with Chris at butterfactory.. Other than that.. I don't really like ZOUK.. Frankly... I had enough of clubbing.. Hmm.. I rather SLEEP! WAHAHHA! I know I know...

CHRISTOPIG! I'm so used to being with you! Going clubbing without u is so boring and tiring! I cant lean on you, hug you, be protected and dance with you! This is CRAZY! I so misss you right now! Alright straight to bed! Loves*

2009-02-08T11:49:00.002+08:00

My heart shrunk
Feels sour
Feels pain
Doubts in my head
Questions in my mind
I'm not ready
Please don't do it to me
I hope its not true
Please don't be true
Am I just too stressed
Or its really gonna happen
Lord, please don't take him away from me
I promise to be good.

If only I can choose the players...

2009-01-30T18:35:00.003+08:00

If only I can choose the players...

I finally gone to MLE lecture after so so long. It is quite a meaningful one.. sets me thinking..

She talks about some rules about ethics.. First being ethical is exhausting, well yes discipling ourselves is no easy feat. Criticizing people seems easier..A lot of us like to criticize and make fun of other people without realizing how bad it made us look. Things that seem to be funny last time are not funny anymore.

Secondly she talked about the golden rule: " To undo others what you want them to do to you"
How many of us really understand that? Just another phrase isn't it?

The third one is : Imagination is not cynicism.

Lastly, there's nothing so satisfying to the spirit, so defining of our character, than giving our all to a difficult task. AH! This pt is rather interesting. She said about how we allow ourselves to do the things that are not right.

We will have to pay our dues one day.

2009-01-28T16:55:00.003+08:00

Happy MOOOO year!

Today is the third day of CNY! Collection is quite pathetic this year! But I should be contented=D

Big bro falec won these young kids' money away today! HAHA! Lion's appetite - $30 bucks at once! But they had a chance to recoup later... Still I must say, Alec is very gentlemen, lose then lose lar! hAHA! Maybe only matured people can do that.. HAHA!
'Never TELL people how to gamble'
Its fun but I just not for these kind of fun! Still Alec rocks in the game man! HAHA!

I miss CHRISTOPIG!

I am back!

2009-01-23T00:59:00.005+08:00

I am back!

Its 2009, CNY sooon!

Many things changed, my friends have changed too... in a negative note unfortunately! haha..

More violent and irritating now, 'too much love' they have recently... Well if causing hurt to others make them help so be it. That doesnt mean I have to comply with it. But I can't be bothered. Hahaha!

I can't accept the allegation for what I've not done... No evidence, nothing, just hear say... So immature and shallow... But why bother explaining myself, I don't have to answer to you all.

Although my bf makes me upset all the time by being insensitive, having POOR time management and saying wrong things at the wrong time, I still love him anyhow!

Doubts about you
Doubts of our future
Wavers time to time
But no doubt
I love you
A little more each day
Never a little less
I feel safe
In the strong yet gentle arms
The body temperature
Warms my heart
I love the way you run your fingers through my hair
The way you kiss my forehead
Tease me
Play those childish games
I don't even dare to think of the worst
I hope things will remain the same
always.
Because,
Our worlds are slanted,
but only together,

it makes sense...

Love, LyZann

I am 18!!!

2008-11-08T17:36:00.001+08:00

More information to be updated sooon!

2008-10-30T20:40:00.002+08:00

Looks like I'm not going to have a memorable or happy 18th birthday... So many things to do and seems like a series of unfortunate events has happened to me=( Plus, my ugly hair and my pimples! I got no clothes=( And I am exhausted! I want to sleep! Spent so much money... Hopefully tmr's pedicure will be great... My parents are so annoying! God!

2008-10-28T21:22:00.003+08:00

Yay! I'm so happy Fel is going to club with me on 8 Nov! Hope she really goes! hahaha! And she asked me to come out with a birthday wish list... Hmm with Audre help this is what I came up with:

Shoulder bag
Shoes! - Flatsss, Stilettos too!- Size 35 =)
Cosmetics! - Brushes like Fel! Erm... Shimmering Blusher. Shimmering Grey Eye Shadow. Glitter Mascara.
Perfume! - Ralph Lauren Notorious!
Organiser!! - Nice nice one=)
Lots of colour pens!
Earringsss and necklacess - I dont have any=(
Dior shades!

Actually these things are rather things that I want to get.. Haha! I dont expect to get anything on the list actually... but I really want quite alot of stuff uh! zzz.. Okay, anyways I had alot of things to do! So tiring and my bdae celebrations seem to be screwed.. Maybe scrapping all the celebrations..

Ciaoz..

2008-10-26T21:19:00.002+08:00

Its a bad Sunday, I am unhappy.. My birthday is in a week's time but I still cant get what I want! My clothes,shoes,etc... I wanted to shop since Friday and I only get to do so today and only for a while and get nth much! Zzz.. No more mood for anything. Not for movie. Not my soup which I craved since Friday night. NOT ANYTHING! I want to drink! haha! I'm going to 18 next week and I can drink all I want! YAY! I hope Chelsea loses today! HAHA! Anws I'm going to BREAK my VIRGIN visit to the clubs @ 8 Nov! Leave a tag if you wanna join=)

2008-10-16T20:10:00.009+08:00

Hello peeps! Sch has started! haix! HAha! Before that I went for my SPARC chalet then consecutively went to genting! WAHAHA! Real heaven before school starts and I am now all drained~ tuition everyday=(((

Anws! Photoss Update!

GEnting!

The first day =)

When we first arrive, waiting to check in!

Powerpuff Girls! Haha!

Abit Chui leh..

Outdoors!

It was so cold! The warm herbal tea eggs are soo tasty!

Indoors! Mr Genting Mac!

Mousey and me!

Poor dino and plane!

Out for dinner! It was so cold.. Look at the fog/clouds or whatever you call them.

Mini van to mushroom town!
Yummy cereal prawns!
Tasty fish!
Ugly tofu! Not NICE=(
Kangkong!

Vain us head back to hotel, put on our masks and wrap up for the day..

Oh not forgetting! We fought too! Pillow FIGHT!

Second day

Dim Sum breakfast! I don't really fancy though.. HAHA!

THEN! Themee PARK!

First UP! Umbrella~
Viking!
Space Shot
Look at my spastic face...
Cockscrew

Punk'd man Fel!
I also dont know what's this? HAHa!

After which we went for a sumptuous dinner - buffet!

Its really cold that night! - the Redsss
Crazy Guys!

After that we went to pub whereby we took really crappy photos, we went back to hotel play till 5am and sleep till the next morning.. everyone was too slpy to take any photos anymore! Three days just went past like that... Aww! Next trip!

School has been really tiring! Must be the tuition! Cant wait to next week, then next week=) then my Birthday! Haha! Till then still have Clair's bdae which is today! Rb bdae.. =))
Halloweeen!

What we saw today really reflects some social problems... Really sad for the kids, shall update on that like my next post.. HAHA.. We had nice nice delicious prawn meeeee=)

Tmr my bf's coming out! I sooo miss him, looking forward to a wonderful weekend=)

2008-10-01T23:04:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!

SELEMAT HARI RAYA PUSA!

Monday 29Sept08

It was a blast! Met my Abubas finally after a Month for drinking we had beer, martell and pure shots! And singing singing singing! This time is pure enjoyment, no feelings of anxiety or stress... HaHa! AHHH! AND we count down to ALEC's birthday! Happy Chapter 2~ His girlfriend so sweeet... Went all the way to Acoustic Pub to give him a surprise! Tsk Tsk* I was feeling kinda unwell that day so I look crap in the photos! Zzz... Upload soon!

Tuesday, 30Sept08

Aww, soooo tired! After a whole night of fun! Had tuition, then that thing came man freaking tired but I moved on with only one motivation - CHRIS is coming back! We met for dinner at 7pm then we went for supper at 10 plus with SHao, gin li, derek, shirley, joel, marlene and bf, huixin, soon, nick, yong hong! SO happy! So many ppl! And finally at 0020 shao,gin,derek,shirley,chris and i went for a movie-EAGLE's Eye. I wouldnt say its nice or lousy... Probably because I am dead beat, it seems too tedious for me to comprehend. HAHA. Fulfilling day=)

Wednesday, 1stOct08

Two joyous occasion! Although I am not affected at all - not even indirectly... I still love public holidays, especially NOW! Because Chris can book out! Weee! Went for tuition early in the morning gave my tutee a bad start to a supposing-ly 'happy day' ahha! Met Chris for lunch- Thai express and had a series of fooood! Yoghurt, Starbucks! Then went home=) It is indeed a short, simple day but it is a very happy day because I had Chris' accompany and we made use of the time well, relax and chill, appreciated each other's company... Hmm, I guess that's what we always wanted to achieve... Now he is back to camp but he will be back sooon! FRIDAY! Slow moving relaxing lifestyle, what more can I ask for=)

WOO HOO! Excited for my chalet then Genting! Hope everything goes well=)
I want to meet my Bitches too! Its been really quite a while...
CiaoZ!

2008-09-29T15:56:00.001+08:00

Tu Amor, Esteras siempre en mi corazon

2008-09-22T00:24:00.008+08:00

MAMA MIA! Here I go again! My my how can i resist you! MAMA MIA was great even though stupid gerald said it sucks because he doesnt know how to appreciate! HAHA!

Honey honey, how you thrill me, ah-hah, honey honey!

Saturday, 20th Sept 08
Went mentoring and it was great! I was down with three water bombs though=( HAHA! And i was so vain kept 'wagging' my hair like a puppy!
Was unhappy with Chris so I kinda ignored him, so done with always having to accommodate his time =( Nvm!

However everything is okay on SUNDAY Night, 21 Sept 08 before he booked in...

Monday 22 Sept 08 was fine! In fact terrific! With my BESTIE!
We went to Sentosa but there was no SUN=(
Nevertheless it was fun=)

On the train on the way =)

Monorail!!

On the beach, see! NO SUN! beer* Jolly Shandy=)

And our delicious gourmet food! ---- Sandwiches!!!

BIMBO! HAHA!

Cam Whoring! - We were quite tired that day actually... But for the sake of playing.., HMM...

Usual stroll along the beach.. hehe=O

SWEET BESTIE=)

I love this pic=) Wee!

Then we saw this very tiny vehicle on the tram stop! MAN! sOoo cute!
And here we go again...

How fascinated we were by the tiny thing!

Then we went to vivo and snap a few photos in the toilet before we went on the bus and ZZZ...

But that wasn't what we thought.... SOMEONE FARTED real SMELLY! I swear! Man! What an exciting day! =)

2008-09-17T23:16:00.011+08:00

I had my bangs on 14 sept!
This was the first thing i did - snap a photo and send it to Chris
He said" Haha. You look like a china doll!" Zzz
At last I forced him to say that I look like egyptian princess - cleopatra HAHA!

Went out with bestie Zhen for her contacts and rushed home to bake cake!

LY and ZHEN

HAPPY 20th to my LOVE! on 15 sept! I countdown with Chris to 15th sept after the wedding dinner.. Hehe! I tried baking a cake for him!

Look quite decent right ? HAHA! My first time OKAY! He said it was nice! Although i don't think its that fantastic.

We played with lanterns tooo!

My camera is really lousy but we still managed to take some photos =)

He looks like like a child!

I can be demure at times =)

I'm glad! We are sweet sweet again=)

Chris became sweet now, buy me breakfast, attentive, more sensitive and caring =) I hope things will remain the same...

The next day! We went Kbox! On his birthday! Wahaha!

I took this while he was singing and I kept disturbing him!

It was really a tiring day because I gotta rush back to sch for exco meeting at 6!

17th sept!
Happy 7th mth! Never take any photos ! But Love bought me a GUESS wallet! Wee! So sweet! We went to Astons for lunch which is great! Watched bangkok dangerous at bugis( the cinema
is super scary, so dark and I thought I saw smth) And went to MOF for dinner with shao they all!
Great and happy day! I love you Chris!

PSST! I spent quite abit in CLUB MARC on dont know when! HAHA!

I want to save money=(
Signing out ........... ZAnn_Ly m HAPPY=)

2008-09-14T00:51:00.002+08:00

Wooo Hoo! I am tutoring a pri 5 boy now! So cool! After so much quarrels and fightss, finally everything starts to cease... He is back again! Better, sweeter and understandable... I am happy! Wee! On the other hand I try to control my temper... Its really scary I know... I will try...

Chris just piggyback me up my house! HAHA! He must be shagged! And must be thinking why don't I get a lighter girlfriend? HAHA! Thanks baby! I Love You! Although I was really disappointed that I cant do everything as planned... I hope everything is going to get better or at least remain the same.. I'll be contented.

2008-09-11T01:42:00.002+08:00

Feeling so lost these two nights... Thinking giving up or moving on... Its so hard... We used to travel all around Singapore... You used to bring me to all sorts of parks... Telling me the history, the place... Now? Car-parks.. ZZZ.. Coming home earlier and earlier when I am having hols... SIANZ... Looks like I've to hang out with my friends more often for late nights now...

No energy
No celebration
No me...

2008-09-09T21:12:00.002+08:00

I believe this is the last straw...

Thanks to all my concerned friends! I understand what you guys meant and your concerns...
But I am afraid...
Anyways! I've got a job! Thanks to bro!
My contacts are not ready yet! I am so mad today.. Couldn't go POP, soccer was only a couple of hrs, didn't get to meet the bitches, also wont get to meet Chris... I thought today will be a fulfilling day but today is totally disappointing and wasted.. I'm switching my focus to something more meaningful. What's the point.

2008-09-06T23:45:00.004+08:00

Oh my god! To all girlfriends whose boyfriends are in the army! Share our plight! Haha! Please read Shirley's blog! Love her man! xiaomin-gal.blogspot.com! She is the same as me! That kind of comforted me... Her bf who is my senior is in the army too... She feels sad and angry at times too... Just like me.. And we cry.. But we love our boyfriends.. Anti-NS! Humph!
I was angry ytd night, but it somehow appeased alrdy... Great=) Chris is coming back tmr morning!

Today was really realllly tiring! Shopping with mum, grandma and aunt is no easy feat! Its rather... a chore.. HAHA! But seeing them happy, I'm happy too! I know my blog is boring! No pics nth... But!!!! I will try k! I dont really like to take pics! haha!

*JUMPS with JOY* Soon and Huixin looks happy! I am soo sooo glad=)
Alright off to bed...

2008-09-05T22:56:00.003+08:00

Weird? Never Mind... Its better off this way... Maybe we haven't know each other long enough, not comfortable enough, not serious enough... Always the second or the last, never the first anws... How disappointing... I'm losing hope, losing faith each day...
I never felt appreciated each time I've done something for you, but I still do it for you... Sometimes I really don't understand me. Why am I doing this to myself? Why am I staying on? I could have walked off, I'm still young anws...
As far as there are a million reasons for me leave, there's one reason to stay...
Love...

I don't know how long more can I hold on... stop testing my patience.

Running out...

2008-09-04T19:41:00.003+08:00

It seems like everything is running out!!! My god! I got so many commitments now I feel a little tired... I'm so sad... I can't get a job... Running out of cash, running out of contacts, running out of love... I have so many things to consider... Sometimes I hope I can don't worry about anything else and just do the things I want and I like... I am so tired.. I need a shoulder to lean on... Apparently I seem to be leaning on anyone who sits beside me! Haha! Becoming a natural Instinct... Psst... Also has been busy planning for something...

Oh my god! I tell You all! MY fren, Mark! He is super duper sweet to my fren, Eliza! Awww...They like never quarrel at all... So envious! Eliza went for hiking (if i am not wrong), his nick is actually "I pray, lord jesus will bring her back to me safely. She is my life." Woah! Eliza! He is a gem man! Hugs tight*
Talking about that, I was talking to ShuJun, she was so touched as Jason waited for her to go back before sleeping...So caring! God! Meanwhile I was bitching with ShuJun and Hui Xin about our boyfriends *fumming* Haha! But yes she is right... whatever we did for them we did it on our own will, they also nvr ask us to do, so we also can't appect them to ___appreciate or ___do the same to us... Life is sooo unfair! Haha.

Went to Zhen's hse to stay on Monday! Woo hoo! Super fun man! We chatted our hearts out, play piano, bitched, dyed hair, play with bebe, sleep... Psst! I have a secret of yours Zhen! *black mail* On tues morning she even... HAHA! Anyways, its good to have someone to talk to after so many tiring days, crying... and I can't believe exams has ended for a week only... The pain! Aww!

Nick don't be so troubled k! And you better prepare your PROPOSAL and ask for APPROVAL!

I need a job... I need cash... I need... more than words...

2008-08-31T02:47:00.002+08:00

You are tired... You made me feel this way... I tried so hard, yet you disappoint me again and again... You made me promise not to cry in public and you ask me to cry in the toilet, you felt disgraced... You hurt me... you never knew... you are tired of me... you need a break... maybe a short one, long one... or...

2008-08-26T17:48:00.003+08:00

RRRRRRRRRRR! I hate conb. I lost 16marks! Man! I know it I really do... Haiz... So disappointed with myself. Why can some ppl be happy just by passing? Why are some never contented... higher order needs... When can I reach the self-actualization stage? Never? Not too near? Not even within my range of sight... Strive for MMR! One last ppr... I hope its a great one...

2008-08-25T00:37:00.004+08:00

Silly... Sorry to spoil your surprise... But a surprise is no longer a surprise when its known. What I don't expect anything splendid or exaggerating. Something as simple as my favourite Twix suddenly, unexpectedly delivered to my doorstep to motivate me or to be with me when I am down. And its not that I take every mth so hard or I want you to do smth every mth, its just that... the least I expect from you is a few words... even though its belated... I need to slp! Nite=)

2008-08-24T00:43:00.004+08:00

Nope he hasn't asked for it. I think he has forgotten about it.
Every time you look at someone else's r/s you always think how sweet are others and think why can't yours be like that. Others always seem happier than you are. Why? Why are does it seem that others are always better. Everyone thinks that way?
I do.

Late night study with Zhen!

2008-08-21T02:37:00.002+08:00

Woo hoo! Stayed up so late to study! haha! Actually studied for 2 hrs only... Zhen is staying over at my place tdy! YAY! AHh! I have harvested more fats at my tummy, pimples on my face, dark circles, eye bag, nth good... HAHA! I'm like ugly and hideous now! And exhausted... Gotta slpppp! Nite...

Oh my god! - TWIX~

2008-08-19T17:54:00.002+08:00

AHH! Headache! Wth is consideration?! My god! definition - price made by the promisee in exchange for a promisor's promise.

RuleS relating to consideration.
RULE #1 - Must be of value but not necessarily adequate value. - Someone please sell me your house for $1 !

RULE#2 - Must be of monetary value - Same as my principle: Talk is cheap! Show me the MONEY! - Just kidding

Rule#3- I curse this rule! so LONG! - must be fresh in the sense that it cannot be something that a promisee is already obligated to do / promisor is entitled to receive. - I cant give you money to treat me nicely because it is your duty to treat me nicely. HAHA! - whoever you are. Haha.

Rule#4 - I don't understand too... Must be made by promisee
Rule#5 - EVEN WORSE... Must be in exchange for promisor's promise.

I'm having a headache man! Twix Twix Twix!

2008-08-19T00:16:00.001+08:00

I feel like hugging you on this chilly and cold night... Its a damn cold night, but I'm, I'm with you...

That's right baby I'm going crazy

2008-08-17T18:19:00.000+08:00

Baby,

"I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything"

Contract contract contract and contract!

2008-08-17T17:04:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 6th month ANNIVERSARY to me!
No one to celebrate with
Nothing is happy about today.
Because there is a DISCHARGE BY FRUSTRATION: when through no fault of the parties becomes (in this case) impossible to perform.

- In contracts of personal service the service provider becomes incapacitated hence contract is frustrated.

In this case INCAPACITATED means : my boyfriend is lent to the nation, training to protect his country out in the jungle for like 6 days, thus, unable to contact me today.

How sad! I am mad! LAwing... I feel like eating seafooood! I kinda envious of Yurica. She seems to have so much good food and fun! Awwww... After friday, I can foresee 6 of us having so much more fun next year when we are legal. Whereby contracts won't be forbidden by statue.
Friday is so fun! So relaxed, no stress, no considerations. Its so different when we are having fun with friends! Woo Hooo. Anticipate more to come.
However when it comes to drinking I'm under economic duress* HAHA!

Ciaoz.Back to LSC!

Ahhh!

2008-08-16T23:42:00.002+08:00

So unproductive today. I am tired again! Zzz! SLEEP lar! HAHA! I think I'm missing Chris too much. Though I am not in a bad mood but I feel quite sad too. No one to crap with... AHHH! tired...

Booze gives me Boost!

2008-08-16T19:07:00.006+08:00

Booze gives me Boost!

That's our boooze!

Look at fel! SO RED!

Oops! Where's alec?!

Yes we are finally done with our projs! Over and done with Yr2 Sem1! Woo Hooo! We went to boat quay to drink yesterday. To chill and relax... This time everyone is ON! All six of us. HEHE. I've been quite down since last Sunday. Till ytd! When you take some time off and just relax, it feels so good. We open bottle( Martell) drink, sing! We went to acoustic. Woo Hoo. So fun. Chill till about 2 plus then we scooot home! Going back there after exams to bottoms UP! Heh!
Had mentoring today my 'friend' went along. It was good. Ai peng is super obedient, did her revision. Hope that she can do well for her PSLE. I better rmb to buy sweets for her next week!!!

After so many gloomy days, finally i'm feeling better today. Unfortunately, Chris won't be ard to share with me... I've been 'ignoring' him for a week as I'm feeling really frustrated. Now that I am better he has gone for his 6 days outfield. Hope he is alright. Soon asked abt Chris tdy. Ask if he is alright, if he is going to OCS, if his tummy still there, etc... Haha...

Talking about OCS, hmm... no longer aiming for it, no longer wants to take up the challenge which is so different from what was told to me previously. In my heart already an officer but now giving up... But whatever, as long as he is happy... Don't want to talk about that anymore.

STUDY! Way to go~

Disappointed ? Yes. I'll have to learn to accept it.

I, never thought that I...

2008-08-13T18:12:00.002+08:00

Tmr's is Dan's 18th birthday yo! But I can't go=( got proj... I need to focus and start studying! I really lost focus in life... direction... Who can help me? Everything will change and is going to change...

I'm slipping into the lava and I'm tryin to keep from going under...

2008-08-12T12:44:00.002+08:00

Cause I'm burning up!

Darren did the CUBE test on me. I'm quite amazed by it

CUBE test :
Imagine yourself being in a sunny beach in sentosa suddenly a CUBE pop out of no where, what does the cube looks like? How big is it? What colour is it?

My answer: Enormous, Translucent.

Then you enter the cube and you look around it, you see a ladder, describe the ladder.

My answer: Curve at the side of wall, made of glass.

Alright now, you look around you and you see a bunch of flowers. Describe them.

My answer: Different flowers made up of blue, red, yellow and orange flowers.

Coool.. Alright. After admiring the flowers, you see a horse. Describe the horse.

My answer: White unicorn.

What is the unicorn doing?

My answer: Waiting for me to hop on. Running towards me.

Ok. Last question. From the enormous and translucent cube, you see storm clouds gathering in a distance. Describe them.

Answer: Grey and forbidding

Isn't is a beautiful picture? With colourful flowers and unicorn and a stairs leading you to your bedroom till the storm clouds gathered!

Evaluation!
- I have an enormous EGO! Thats true...

- I'm like an open book. Anyone can see through me. When I am angry people can sense it no matter how hard I try to hide. Zzz. Thats very true..

- Flowers represent my frens. I have quite a variety and quality friends around you that bring colours into my life and I appreciate them! YES I DO! I love my friends!

- The unicorn represents my ideal lover!

"Your ideal love can be fierce yet good, selfless yet solitary but always mysteriously beautiful. Most importantly, he must be dependable and be around you when you need him so that you can 'hop on his back' in times of need. Sometimes run towards you when he has problems of his own.. so cannot be too stronggg!"

Hmm... true? I don't know! Hehe!

- The storm represents your problems. You always tend to see the negative aspect of your problems, so much so sometimes you wish you can avoid all of them and just lead a happy problem free life with your loved ones beside you.

Yes I do but who doesn't? Haha!

But I really love unicorns. Strong yet gentle...

Drink to all that we have lost!

2008-08-11T16:41:00.002+08:00

Drink to all the marks I have lost! I cant believe it! Haiz... I'm in a terrible mood.
Way to go FW!

I hate it when you defend her I hate it when you say "You're so petty, she also never offend you."
I hate both of you. You and her.
These words kept repeating in my head, " I don't want to know because I know her better than you do." Listening to your voice just makes me think of it more. Leave me alone. You're just making me feel more miserable...

Introducing Ted and ...

2008-08-09T14:41:00.005+08:00

Cute right. HAIZ! FW OM! After these two I'll feel better. I have lots troubles but I just choose to keep it to myself. My ego... haha. I don't want to meet you because its only for awhile. So I don't see the point. But. Haiz. I hate this really. I seriously cannot take it.
I'm always the one talking.. you dont talk about you to me at all...

Gotcha!

2008-08-06T22:44:00.004+08:00

Last lesson with MS KWA! SOBS*8 million DREAM!

TWIST!

Just SMile!

Chris called. He sounded super grumpy and I didn't sound that great too. Weighed down by the weight of MMR!!!
My Great discovery! I FOUND YOU! Just got a bad impression of you from the start, and it just pisses me off whenever my bf "seek redress" for you. Whatever. I got the rest of my friends to "seek redress" with me! Chey nth special.. CHUI! wahahha!
I am going crazy! CONB CONB, MMR MMR, OM OM, FW FW, DMA, DMA!!! Woo hOo! Shiok!
Tsk*Tsk* Alec! I want to go hall 2 also! wahaha!

I'm so depressed. I feel like I'm totally empty. Life's difficult...
Seriously I do not what else can I do other than missing you. You can't even be here for me when I need you...

Stresssssssss-- ed

2008-08-05T23:50:00.002+08:00

UP!

Oh my god! I really hate this phase of poly! It sucks! I really want to do well in poly, get out and go to uni ASAP! So I can join my bro and chris and be in the same phase. I'm like... restless and boo!

ANws! I'm aching from head to toe! Head-ache, back- ache, waist- ache, stomach- ache... Blah blah! I miss Chris so much... This is probably the hardest part. He is not coming back for our 6th mth anniversary which is next week but I can't accompany him this week! I have tests and assignments and projs to be completed. I think I have to ignore him for a mth, I think I shan't be selfish and let him look for another girl. HAHA! That's not what I really think though. He will probably rush to play his soccer - bet he will be happier than anything... Zzz...
Anws, these things aside, sacrifices have to be made, so many things in my mind, so many things I want to do. I do not want to grow up but I want to move on with life! How contradicting! Zzz!
Alright!
CIAOZ...

Missing you so much, having nightmares of you leaving me... You are going to NUS, what if I go to NTU, worst, work... thats the end isn't it?

Looking forward to the day...

2008-08-03T19:57:00.004+08:00

... that you will be mine again.
Chris is back and gone again. This weekend is a sweet dream but "SMACK!" its back to reality again... A dreadful week. Very very busy. I haven't started on my FW, OM at all. MMR is going to due soon. This week is really crazy. I hope it will be over soon! But I can't spend the weekend with Chris this week. HAIZ. I got like tests and assignments to finish. Madnesssssssss. I'm exhausted. Take a nap...

Took a nap...
Wake up. Hope to see Chris beside me. It hurts when I realise that he has gone back. Was watching incredible tales. Supposed to be spooky however it turned out to be a romantic love story. Psychiatrist said that our mind is so powerful that when u are in a coma for even a few hours you can travel back to the past and see the person or date the person that they will eventually marry. In the 'dream' it could be happening for hrs,days,months or even years even though that you are only in a coma for a few hrs. How sweet. Which means that are really relationships that could last throughout centuries, so called eternity...

I keep climbing and hoping things would change

2008-08-01T21:20:00.002+08:00

I just ache from my shoulders all the way down. Man. Just tiring. We did filming today. Yea. Useless. I practically did nth. Not as if I wanted. Nevermind. I just hope tmr will be better! There's mentoring tmr! Chris is coming back too =)

Over again...

2008-07-28T22:46:00.002+08:00

Its all over again. Rehabilitation Day 2.

Chris came back on Friday! These two days are practically too short. I barely feel him for 2 hours!!! It felt like a dream... I was smack right back to reality only when he is about to go back again... This week will be worse... I want to go back to the past. When I can see him whenever I want to, pour my sorrows to him and tell him all the happenings whenever I want to... I miss the past... I miss his hair, the past Christopher, the things that we used to do and the things we can do... He don't belong to me anymore. He belongs to the country now.But we can only look forward! Other than missing him is missing him more. Its so hard but I will try to keep it going. I will "borrow" him to the country for 2 years. Hopefully the interest and "returns" will be good...

Its the weekends ... AGAIN...

2008-07-18T15:24:00.002+08:00

Rehabilitation Day 10. Great weather, sucky day.

I'm just not in the right mood. So many unnecessary things to be done. Duties and shit. Was supposed to meet Zhen to do my LSC but the poor girl is sick=( Get Well soon dear! Looks like I have to stay alone at home to do tonight. I really want to join ruby they all, but
1. I'm short of cash
2. I need to do LSC by today.
-Have mentoring and cycling tmr, most probably going sentosa on sunday and meeting up the rest of my PUB members for the first time.
-There are still 7 days to go before I can see Chris.
-And I've filming on that day.
-Plus we have project meetin the whole next week. Zzz
-I'm really turn off by the guys man. Will they stop looking at us sexually. I really can't stand it. Zzz!

Slept for 2 and a half hrs! wahahaha! Feeeels good!

Monday "Bloooze"

2008-07-14T22:33:00.003+08:00

Rehabilitation Day 6. Restless day.

I feel really restless today and haven't done anything meaningful but at least I have school today so time passes faster so I won't think of Chris that much.
- Aww! I didn't didn't bring my file! Whats the pt of going to sch? Is it because of the effect of the drug again?
- Rehabilitation seems to make me more addicted than ever.
- Chris haven't called, I doubt he will... Its late. Haven't received any of his sms... Hope he is fine=)
- He sent me a Good morning msg today! I'm exhilarated!
- I got a burning question to ask him. "Is the photoshoot you took that day for glen?"
- Zzz... I have a thousand words in mind to curse.
- LSC! CONTRACT HOW?!
- What abt OM?
- Something interesting... Our dear classmate is featured in Cleo's magazine! tsk tsk*

Baby I miss you...

You'll do just fine...

2008-07-13T22:34:00.003+08:00

Rehabilitation Day 5. It is pouring now. And whenever its at night and its raining I miss you more...

Darling hang in there! You can do it! You're going to make it! I miss you a little more everyday.
Rehabilitation seems to be uselesssss.

- Went out with your fren tdy! Watched HANCOCK.
- Went Cathay , think of you again...
- Hancock was... not as well done as expected. But still not tooo bad!
- I'm waiting for you to watch red cliff and dark knight with me!
- Please take care alright! You'll do just fine=)

~Loves~

You don't know how much I hate weekends now!

2008-07-13T01:36:00.005+08:00

Rehabilitation Day4. Saturday, technically Sunday. 1.37am. Weather - no idea.

-I practically slept the whole day and work the whole evening.
-There's nth good about today, its awful, long and terrible.
-The best part is I get to hear Chris voice to near till 20 mins!
-He sounded different, voice hoarse but he still sound cheerful. I know its tough for him! I'm not going to make it tougher. I really miss him like crazy! Like crazy!
-Addiction's bad today. Very.
-14 more days to go!
-5 more days to our 5th mth!

Am so frustrated after doing the namecards.
I miss you so much I want to breakdown and cry...

And I can't help myself baby, cause I think about you constantly...

2008-07-11T23:34:00.002+08:00

Rehabilitation Day 3. Fine. Very Humid!

Had a short day in school.
-We had our presentation and handed in our MMR proj.
-Two heavy loads are finally unloaded.
-Went to feast with ZHEN ZHEN (JOANNA) AGAIn!
- I am staying over at her hse! Its going to fun!
- I miss chris badly! 2 weeks is far away!
- HE CALLED! He said its kinda tough and its going to be tougher! I guess thats what it takes to be in the enhancement batch.
- I really hope he is fine!

I need the drug! I cant take it no more!
HAHA! And I am drowning myself with work...

Cheers! 14days to see CHRIS 6 days to our 'monthly -versary'

Lost without you...

2008-07-10T20:12:00.002+08:00

Rehabilitation Day 2. Rainy yet sunny day. Humid.

- It is not a fine day. I started my day really badly.
- Lesson starts at 9am I reach at 8am! Argh!
- Its either I want to get out of my hse so eagerly or I was out of mind due to the absence of the drug.
- I have the urge to go back home I stayed with the only motivation: Get back my test papers
Yet, didnt! But we gotten back LSC, Haiz... Disappointing... Because I know I have screwed ConB so I expect LSC to be better but...
- I miss CHRISTOPHER NG WEI LONG.
- I took a nap when I came back home, I dreamt of me hugging Chris. I didnt want to wake up.

Getting delusional...
Excited! I am going to stay over at Joanna's hse tmr. I have loads of stuff to do. At least I have company when my addiction kicks off*

Gotta do work! Two CAs deadline tmr!
Waiting for my "sentence" to be over! Hope you are safe and sound! God bless~

I know you will be back boy...

2008-07-09T18:29:00.002+08:00

Rehabilitation Day 1. Rainy and chilly day.

My baby boy has enlisted into NS!
I am so proud of him but I miss him so much... After so much pampering and reliance, it is so diffcult to not have him around. I am trying very hard to get used to it. When he get into UNI I bet its going to be the same. I dont mind accompanying him to study, I just hope his heart will stay the same... Cause my love for you will never change... What he told me scares me. So each time I get to hug him I gotta hug him tight because I dont know when he is going to leave me. For now I just hope that he is doing well inside and pray that he will be safe and sound!

This drug is hard to kick ofF!

Peace ~ Loves~

Where to ? on 12 Jul

2008-07-01T18:44:00.004+08:00

My goodness waited for sOooo long to arrange a time to go sentosa! Actually planned to go sentosa next saturday 12 Jul 08 with Zhen but I realised that there's a Cafe del Mar party @ sentosa! goodnesss sponsered by NUM. Should I say sponsered by Coke zero and supported by NUM and siloso beach? ahha! Guess alot of ppl is going!

Should I go Cafe Del Mar?
In any case have to change the date with Zhen !

Movie Craze!

2008-06-30T21:18:00.002+08:00

Woo Hoo! Mst is finally over! But there's no time for me to take a breather! Zzz...

School has started! Projects deadliness to meet! Cca!
Chris is enlisting in one week time! ONE week! MAN! and I am only left with a few days with him... like maybe two or three days? Argh! I gonna miss hugging him! And his stomach! I gonna miss him pampering me in his arms and I gonna miss bickering with him and I gonna missss his funny faces! Things are going to change...I know. I am afraid...

My CCA. I feel like giving up.I feel really incompetent. And un-credited too. I miss my seniors... Its so much fun working with them... I really dont mind working w/o a post. I feel so much not into it after getting a post. Somehow... Haiz... I am doing so many things, planning the stuff but I know alot of ppl think that I'm not doing anything. Whatever the case, I will quit after I've completed my stuff.

Movie craze!
There are so many so many movies that I want to watch!
- Get smart
- The incredible Hulk
- Hancock
- Red Cliff
- The art of devil 3!
- X files
- The dark Knight!

WOoo HooOo! Sounds real good uh?! heh heh! If only I can watch them all. 10*7=$70
Man! I am really broke! There are so many things i feel like eating!Zzz...
- Good wood park hotel's cakesss
- Mussel Man
- TCC!
- Ben & Jerry ice cream
- Ramen Ten!
- Sizzler

Then again I am broke!
I am waiting for my tutee! Once I become a tutor then I got extra income! hehe!
I need to gym away my stomach fats! Save money for Sept**
Anticipate for Christmass! YAY!

Knocked out~
** Where can I watch heart of greed?!!

MST!!!

2008-06-22T18:27:00.003+08:00

MAN! I totally am not in the mood to study for testsss... HAHA! I want some crazy crazy fun! I had a crazy movie marathon with Chris on Fri! HAHA!
ZOHAN! - "Silky silky hair!" Funny and Filthy show! haha! Worth watching though!
PENELOPE! - Man sweet sweet modern fairy tale! I love fairy taless!

Saturday we brought the mentees to botanical garden! Woah! It was fun! We had treasure hunt and we had picnic!
Tsk tsk* Yeanching asks me to be beware of my bf! hmmmm......
I totally had no more energy to study ytd. Had congee! Fantastic!

I am having a terrible sore throat! And I am still having chezels to knock off the boredom I'm getting from staring at my NOTES! MAN! haha! I am so sorry for not being able to celebrate xuan's bdae! SOrry!

CHeese! Smile=)

All the best guys! Mug hard!

No coincidence it was meant to be...

2008-06-19T23:26:00.002+08:00

You make me laugh,you make me cry,I don't know which side to buy.

I hate the most that you do, you make me love you.

You make me laugh,you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy.

I like the most that you do,you make me love you, you do...

One wish...

2008-06-19T00:19:00.003+08:00

Hello there! Long time since I've blogged. Its 18 june in fact 19 june 08. I have been tgt with Chris for 4 mths alrdy. How time files. He is going to enlist in less than three weeks time. Great. Good time for us to think abt our r/s. 17 is our anniversary. 18 we quarrelled. So all my guy frens listen up

'I AM ATTACHED! SO STAY AWAY FROM ME!'

A lot of things I want to say but I couldn't. A lot that I want to tell you but I can't. You said I dont understand you and you dont understand me too. Do you still see a future in us? How much more tears do I have to shed for you?

Goodnight ppl!
Mug hard!

Holidays ? Not exactly...

2008-06-05T10:45:00.002+08:00

It has been holidays for like almost a week yet I have been in school for past three days... What a bore! I need real FUN! Who's up for soooommmeee fun! KBOX, MIND's cafe, DRINKING, HORROR MOVIES MARATHOH!!! I am so bored!! My DMC peeps! My Bitches! My friends!

HORROR MOVIES MARATHON! - whO's up?!

Its not that I am tooo free or as if I got nth to do... I want to go back to have the life I used to live! Packed, fulfilling, exciting and fun! CYCLING YES!

Still can't wait till I turn 18... WooHoo!

Everything requires money man! And I am alrdy super super broke! Bloody camp need to pay $20 bucks man! HAHA! However I dont mind paying for some fun, really... I think I am super hyper, I can't stop having fun if not my life will be super miserable man... Like now.. Life is so miserable... HAHA!

Good day GUYS! Love all of you! =) smile! God bless~

I'm living two different lives..

2008-05-26T10:02:00.003+08:00

This weekend is quite meaningful though its boooring... Its GSS! wooo hoo! Cant wait but go shopping on Friday night alrdy! I totally have no moood for anything! Sooooo many things to worry abt and soooo many things to do, soooo many deadlines to meet!
Saturday have duty for SRRR! It was freaking warm! had to walk ard the area a few times to 'promote' SRRR or rather SP?! haha! Then went out with Mr Chris in the evening...
Sunday was booring! Feel like slpping... However have to force myself to do FW! So I went out with Joanna to do my FW! Thank god I draft out my story alrdy. I'm left to justify my story and edit my FW.
Thanks Nick for helping me! Your comments are really great!
Monday NO SCHOOL! Rather.. I dont need to attend any lessons because of rehearsals.
Friday SHOPPING AGAIN! SATURDAY another round! Sunday come again!

List
-Pull and bear shirt
-Topshop shorts

More!
-Shoes
-Bags
-Accessories!!

DAMN so many things to buy! I hereby declare bankruptcy! - BROKE!

!EMOCLEW

2008-05-21T21:37:00.002+08:00

Hello Mr Ng Wei Long! Welcome back to Singapore! Like finally! Have a great rest! I yearn to see you soooon! Like right away? HAHA! These 4 days seem looong and haven't been easssy... So glad so glad that you are back! I miss you dearly!

CIAOZ~ Loves*

Man Utd Vs Chelsea =)

BuBAs! MMR stayover 1...

2008-05-19T22:16:00.009+08:00

Then Fel came back and wanted to join in...

NERDS... SPECS =)

Then we got addicted.... Nostrils ?

3rd shot! - oOps pimples!

2nd shot! - FUNNY FACE!!! haha! - retarded!

Testing 1 2 3... Taken early in the morning 9 plus.. still sleepy.... with shumay's webcam!

SOS.

2008-05-19T14:25:00.002+08:00

Stayed over at fel's aunt vacant house at YISHUN! Cool so fun! But we cracked our brains real hard! Not forgetting all the fun with had... AHH! Chris is in Hong Kong relaxing and chilling after his graduation... He called me from Hong Kong last night! Surprised and ecstatic! However it only make me miss him more... We celebrated our 3rd mth for only... a few hrs? I hugged him so tightly before I let him off to hong kong.. 4 days only! Cant imagine when he enlisted into army.. Luckily I will be kinda busy.... Just hope time files without you with me! Head to bed!

- MMR
- FW
- DMA!

I so need help! SOS!!!

Better In Time

2008-05-12T21:58:00.002+08:00

I didnt know it has been a week since I've updated my blog... Has been real real busy... Choked with projects and very sooon sparc camp meetings... So many things so little time... Term 1 is going to end real sooooon... Pros and Cons...
Pros: Holidays! More time to have fun!
Cons: Nearing exams period, Chris enlistment date...
Well... Hopefully these two years just FLY by!

So tired! Forever not enough slp... CIAOZ!
Tucked in*
Loves*

"I like the way he's speaking his confidence is peaking."

2008-05-04T15:02:00.004+08:00

It has been a long while since I updated my blog. Series of events. CCA Drive, AGM... I've printed my poster, brochure and calendar. Have been spending time with my bitches and Chris. Man. So little time with Chris. School has been really hectic. I am always so lethargic. Next up! Camp!
Counting down to the day Chris enlisting.. 66 days...
Will we pull it through?
Hopefully...
OM test! - Bubas! Here we go!

Its really hard... But baby I will wait for you... because life w/o you is like living with no air...

17 April 2008!

2008-04-18T22:41:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was extremely fantastic and great which explains why am I soooo lethargic today. Very proud to announce that its 2nd yr anniversary of the Bitches day! It has been 2 years since we graduated from secondary school.. so glad so glad that we are still in close contact and still best of friends.

2nd mth anniversary! Kinda of disappointed as we didnt get to even meet each other!

Today is kinda of gloomy. So tired. However had fun with fel, shu may, shawn, fir, gerald and audre! Met up with Chris ltr... And it wasnt that great I have to SHARE him with his frens. Zzz.

Went swimming. Felt so much better!

Apocalypto- Great film. - I cried!
I miss my bf yet I have to share him with others tmr again. There goes Sat. Sianzzz...
I need to get a life! No more restless friday nights! - Maybe I shld join dance again...

Take care!

Nemesis? - NOT!

2008-04-13T12:54:00.002+08:00

Busy buzzzy even before sch starts. Sch's starting tmr!!! Haiz. Got to work hard as promised... My CCA booth decoration is still in a mess. So unorganised but I will still push it back.
-Haven's shirt design
-Poster
-Brochure
-Calendar

Its only the first week of school and I know I'm going to be super busy alrdy.
Ytd received a gift from heaven! Which Mark deem to be my nemesis? Nope not true! What the hell should I concede defeat even before I start competing. Winning by the battle of tongue doesn't count! Learning how to work together and prove your worth is more impt. And I will prove myself more worthwhile than my so called 'nemesis' ? HAHA. Perhaps I am his nemesis as I have achieved so much more in my life. Leading a happier,fulfilling and interesting life than his.
This is just the starting... The best is yet to come...

I need to vent it out, I need help...

2008-04-09T00:48:00.004+08:00

WHY?

There are a few reasons why I blog.
1) I feel good
2) On the other end of the scope, I feel terrible

And today I just feel terrible. Has been crying to myself these few nights... Various reasons and somehow I need to vent it somewhere. Had photoshoot today. It was great. Thanks Wang Jun! Thanks Hafiz, Yanting and Eliza for your time and effort.Sorry Chris for making you wait. Its not what I wanted, some things are just beyond my control, hope u understand..
Got scolded by some passer-by today along orchard... Scare the hell out of me. Gosh I was taken aback and was at a lost for awhile.
Bump into Gerald. Thanks Gerald for your encouragement!
Had SPARC meeting, its not too bad. Was dead beat, came home at 11 plus... checked my email and next time I realise 'evil LY' appeared. Those emails made me feel disregarded and disrespected. I wanted to vent it out badly... Thanks Mark for lending your ear to me...

In conclusion it has been a real terrible day. Everything don't seem to go in my way. I feel terribly terrible. Thank god I've a blog.

What am I supposed to do with all these blues...

2008-04-07T11:44:00.004+08:00

Ahh. Shucks! So many things to do! So many things yet so little time. How I wish someone could listen to my complains, share some of my tears... Zzz... Its a brand new academic year. Time files... And I hope it goes faster... I want to turn 18! How I wish I can club and drink legally... Woah.. Anticipation becomes anixety and eventually will explode! BOOM!! Party! Life will not be perfect without nightlife, dancing and partying with all the stress that we are facing everyday.

P.S :God please fast foward time!
Volunteers for 'free ears'!

"I didnt mean to fall in love with you..."

2008-04-06T00:29:00.005+08:00

Its been awhile I've updated my blog. Life's great. Starting to get hectic. Mentoring was awesome however I was rather lethargic. He must have felt really bad for the match to be cancelled. Aww don't sulk! Cheers darling!

Went to watch definitely, maybe ytd. Man... SWEET. Chris actually talk to me about TWIST! Haha! oOps. All lovers should just watch. Then again I feel that its so contradicting. How could you fall in love with three different girls at the same time? aRgh.. That is super unfair!
Critics gave 3.5 out of 5 stars. Great. I kinda of agree.
Met up with fel before that, shopped for awhile and chatted very a long while. Long Long day. Went to the hosp earlier in the morning.

Met up with Ruby on thursday! Man! As pretty as usual. Miss her so much. Its so hard to see you gals now that we are going different routes but then I still miss you all frens!
Earlier in the afternoon met Soon, Chris and this new fren Sujun! She's really nice. Great company.

I met up with Zhen earlier in the week to celebrate her 18th bdae! We drank and she went red! HAHA! SO hilarious! We had fun! So glad we are still good frens. Meet up soon!

Chris has been sick for the week and so I took some time off to acc him as much as I could. Apparently I can't do much, kinda of useless... haha. But I am so glad he is much better now!

It has been a long long week and I foresee a longer and even more hectic week coming along.
Ciaoz everyone! Take care!
We know its getting tougher but somehow it pulls us closer and made us stronger hopefully... You said you are too used to being with me... And I wonder how am I suppose to live without you... Its hard to adapt.

Last night!

2008-03-30T13:38:00.004+08:00

28 March is my last day of work at SATA! wOo hOo! Exhilarated! Met up with my girls Dan, Tee ming, Yk and Chris to Eski bar! cOol . My girls went there for the first time and I bet its the first time they've been to pub. Great! They were goregous that night and I bet they enjoyed themselves. We went 'lau pa sa' for supper that night and we had.l.. full table of seafood. And guess what!? I can't touch them! aRgh! Totally infuriating! Haha! But I had pink dolphin so I am contented! WEE!

29 March I watched Step Up 2! What a blast! But its not as amazing as I thought! But its great. Apologies Fel it was too late ytd. I hope you had a great party ytd! LoveS! Meet up soon guys!

Good day. Chilly, cooling, fantastic.

2008-03-28T00:02:00.001+08:00

If only I ain't that cruel but its just too bad that I am...

"Good" things often come in a pair...

2008-03-24T22:20:00.004+08:00

Met up with the bitches on thursday, 20 march 08. If being directed to the wrong location is not bad enough after a long day at work, a venti hot chocolate bath absolutely made my day. Haha.H0wever after meeting Chris, things dont seem as bad anymore. Haha. Meeting up with the bitches is so fun. Laughter, joy,crazinesss... Next bitches meeting will be this friday- pub outing then stayover!

If having hot chocolate bath isnt bad enough... Guess the reason from limping. CRashed. Again... Bicycle. Well. I just came back from the doc. 4 days of antibiotics - cause - wound is too big... and the miraculous cream - when i was applying - no feeling. When I stand up - the pain is soooo immense that I can hardly walk. Bullshit! But we went to a pub at night call 'eM'. Nice place to chill but looks like we are too young for that. Haha! Manu 3nil ! YAY!

These are some photos of eM.

Great week everyone!
Take care, God bless!

P.S. I love you.

To be loved and lost than never love at all...

2008-03-18T23:02:00.003+08:00

I've a really stiff neck! Its killing me! I hate this. Ytd I was having a terrible headache and sore throat however its a special day so it somehow compensated. What made the day worst was some freaking women who threw her temper on me. Crap. I have to swallow all these nonsense. Guess thats the price to pay...
However being with you seems to take away all these crap... Its a pleasant day after all. With Mr Ted slping besides me.

Today. Was as busy. I wasn't feeling good as well. Grumpy, grumpy,grumpy. I can't sms. Zzz. I bet I need to find another person to listen to all my complains! Zzz...
And yes I've got the real answer for you for your question: No I won't blame anyone. Because there's no right or wrong in the game of love. There are no rules in the first place...

Goodnight guys! SCOOOT~

To all - RIDCULOUS comments are not welcome;

2008-03-16T13:53:00.006+08:00

Hello friends and readers I am back again!

Due to some of the disturbing comments in the tagboard I've decided to remove it. I will renew it soon. For the moment you may want to leave your comments at the comments section. Only indigenous and discreet comments will be entertain. Any more insensible and nonsensical comments, I swear to report your IP address and screw you!

After a shocking and disturbing sunday morning I still decided to blog about my week. Monday,10 March 08, was great because there's noWORK! woo hoo! Went to school for rehearsal for tue's duty. Chris went all the way back to school and sent me to my 2E2 gathering! sOooo sweet right! Haha! 2E2. Hmm, not much of interaction. I dont really like the idea of watching movie because that doesnt help much in interacting which is apparently the main purpose. HAHA. But then they dont buy my idea. Haha. We watched RULE #1 I sat beside Joshua Wong, he is as scared! Zzz... I so hope that you are with me then...

Rule#1
I will give this movie 3 out of 5 stars. Why? Because it is not like other horror movies. Unique. hmm. Worth watching!

Tuesday.Went to school for SPARC duty. First time being an IC, don't know if I've done a good job one thing I know is I have a good team. Good teammates!

Wednesday- BACK TO WORK! Zzz. The best part of it is I have to go back to school after work. So boring don't know anyone there. ToO tired to interact... Bad PR. Zk wants me to hOok up some guys for the club! HAHA. I will next time. Haha!

Thursday- Work again! What else. Long long day.... Was Chris last day of work so we kinda of celebrated. Haha. Wanted to go Kenny Rogers initially but it was tooooo crowded. So we went to SIAM KITCHEN instead. Really love the "Pink" rubies. Long lovely stroll...

Friday! - I love Fridaysss. It is the day I anticipate every start of the week! Went Mind's cafe with Huixin, Woody and of course Chris. Very fun! Love it! TaboO!

Saturday. Its MENTORING session Again! Have to teach Aipeng and Yanli math. Man the toughest part is not doing but teaching. Making sure that they understand. And I'm glad they did but its really hard to concentrate when there's two. Zhi wei is soooo cute! SOcCer match! - Great aggressive match. Nice! "That's my boy!" Went to liquid kitchen to watch Manu match at night. Damn annoying! Not performing! Had baileys. We left for east coast park after the first half. Great cooling place with lots of couples and tents. Hell knows why are there so many tents and then we found a place to settle finally. "Somewhere only we know..."

Sunday- boring, slow,sleep,missing you...

"Don't try to explain yourself...

2008-03-09T11:46:00.003+08:00

...Because the person who likes you doesnt need an explanation and the person who dislikes you won't believe you."

That's what I have been staring since the day I started working in the corporate services department when I am so bored. Work is so tedious! I was initially in the call centre trying hard to pick up the stuff and when I finally get my stuff I was then transferred to the corporate office. Man trying my best to pick up new stuff over again. This sucks! Though call centre is stressful as I have to deal with all sorts or ppl but there's more freedom over there. Now, I'm under the manager's nose! HAHA. So many stuff to do! Man! I'm really shagged each time I reach home so don't blame me if I don't update my blog! Haha.

Well this week has been great.Met up with Jaz and Ong on Wednesday for a chat. Well great to know about each other lives. Was out with Guan on Thurs to catch up. Haven't seen each other for like 4 mths? Man. Nice catching up. I am always flattered by her for some reason. She flatters me too much! Life's good for both of us I guess. I yearn to see you again!

Was out with my boy on Friday to YS bdae then we went to MEET the SPARTANS! HAHA! If you are not familar with the America's entertainment industry I bet you won't understand. There are lyrics and other celebs that they make fun of. Its very lame, lousy movie indeed. Haha.Well then again. The company is great. It seems like we can never stop talking or singing. HAHA!

Saturday met Chris for lunch then off to school to help Elizar up. BUT then, it seems like its true that some things only heaven knows. Somehow we didnt get to do anything. - Wasted trip. Went to Tp to make order for my contact lens then went to meet Ong for church. - Interesting testimonial. Then met up with Chris for dinner!

Sunday morning - great weather, great sun. Went jogging with Jaren CK. He ran like 5 rounds? I ran for 1 and a half rounds then down alrdy. I enjoyed the fresh air and listen to radio. - Beautiful morning. Then it starts to drizzle then rain. And then it reminds me of Maroon 5 - Sunday Morning. "Sunday morning rain is falling"
Great Sunday guys!

- Read, drink tea, chill, listen to songs, missing you...